Well, I made the plunge, thanks to my husband, I bought a new Nikon 7200 with two prime lenses. It’s been so many years since I’ve fostered my love of photography, and my hands are itching to start shooting. [The battery really needs to hurry up and charge!] I have this half-cracked idea that I am going to start my own photography business and walk away from the corporate world. I don’t know if I can do it. Inside I am anxious and excited and terrified. I need to remind myself to stop and breathe. Just pick up the camera and start using it. Some friends have offered to be my guinea pigs, and I am so thankful. All I have been telling them is that I am going to be super rusty and not to expect much.
I need to start taking better care of myself. Between caring for my daughter, husband, full time job, and home … I don’t leave much room for myself. I am the one that has control over the situation though. I just need to put together some kind of eating and exercise chart to help motivate myself, otherwise, I will do as I have been doing … coffee (three cups before noon), till I realize I’m starving, then eating something shitty … like a slice of bread. Then waiting to eat again later at dinner, if I even bother to cook. I also don’t get enough sleep, and spend entirely too much time sitting on my ass. This needs to stop. I do remember to take my antidepressant though! No one wants the return of sad-sack nonwriterwriting.
Right now I want to do stuff around the house, but I know my daughter is going to wake up from her nap soon and I need to feed her lunch. I really want to paint the surround of our fireplace, it is this shitty, nasty, forest green that I hate, and it makes the room look so dark and dismal. I think even a coat of primer would improve the situation immensely. Again, back to the getting off my ass part.
Okay, that is enough for today. I am probably going to try to take a shower. We’ll see if that actually happens or if I end up sitting on the sofa watching HGTV for the next four hours. (most likely scenario)